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"So can I hear that poem you wrote? I read the letter so it's only right."
"Okay. I'm telling you now though, it's juvenile rhyming shit." He said and flipped through all the pages until he finally landed on the correct page. He cleared his throat and began reciting:

"girl meets boy
he's so stunned;
girl makes boy
fall in love.
boy tells girl
'it's meant to be
I know that you're
the one for me'.
girl replies
'I love you too
but I'm not in love
with what you do'.
boy tries to change
to no avail;
His stupid shit
winds him up in jail
girl cries her eyes out
while boy's away
thinking the baby she's carrying
is the only reason to stay
boy's released
he's excited;
With his heart
he'll be reunited
Times goes on,
they dismember.
The good times
are all they remember
girl is convinced
she can do without his love
While boy is praying
to God above

The reinvention:
boy's on some new shit
And girl has a new attitude
of independence.
Baby's growing
keeps them close
But their future together
looked more than morose
'Marry me', boy jokes
girl gets curious.
Little does she know
he's dead ass serious.
More time passes
and another possible pregnancy
boy needs girl in his life
with some urgency.
boy's confused
girl is most of what he lives for;
It's breaking his heart
that they are no more.
More stupid shit from boy
though he keeps it hidden
girl would never want him back
if she knew his secrets.

It's the future now
they're still not together
boy could have sworn
it would be 'him and her forever'.
The first girl he loved;
the first who loved him;
boy does not want this
to finally be the end.
girl tells boy
'be a man!
Because this boy shit
is outta hand!'
boy finally gets it
and tries his best;
He decides to put
girl's words to the test
'Be a Man, be a Man'
resonates in his head.
In order to get girl back,
his 'boy' image he must shed.
girl is no longer 'girl'
she's now Woman
No longer does she wants 'boy'
she's waiting on Man.

boy tries and tries
even without Woman's urge.
Like a butterfly in a cocoon,
he wants Man to emerge.
Woman moves on
boy is distraught
If only in a school
this man shit could be taught..."

He stopped reading. He looked at his girl who was watching him.
"What happened?" She asked.
"That was all I wrote."
"So it's not finished?" He shook his head.
"I'm stuck. I don't know where to go with it."
"I thought you would be finished by now."
"I kept adding to it. I wasn't satisfied."
"Well 'Woman' is still waiting for 'boy' to emerge as 'Man'." She teased.
"Boy is working on it, trust me."

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RIP Jasmina Anema

*I  meant to post this yesterday.*

I ran across this story I believe in March/April 2009 and it saddened me. I don't know exactly what I was doing or how the link to her website came to my attention, but it did. Jasmina was a 6-year-old girl with leukemia and was looking for a donor. On her website, there was a video of Jasmina and her best friend (see photo below) telling her story and how to become a possible donor in hopes to save her life.

She found a donor, but her body rejected it. In September, the cancer returned and her health deteriorated. According to her twitter, her mother posted, "At 10:55 on January 27th, after a long battle, Jasmina lost her fight with leukemia. Thanks for all of your support."

*ongoing flow of tears.*


Being someone who lost a young family member to cancer, my heart, prayers and condolences go out to Jasmina's friends and family.

read more:
New York Daily News Article
NY Daily News photo gallery 
Jasmina's twitter page 
One for Jasmina website


photo credit: NYdailynews.com

Mariah Carey. Double Video Premiere

Mariah premiered two new videos from her album "Memoirs of an Imperfect Angel". The videos for "Angels Cry" ft. (my fave) Ne-Yo and "Up Out My Face (Remix)" ft. Nicki Minaj. I love them both. Although, Angels cry reminds me of "One Sweet Day" a little with the in-studio footage. The other video seems like it was so much fun. Nicki and Mariah look gorgeous in it and I peeped Nick at the end of the video as well. (I hate WSHH, but that's where I saw the vids so yeah...)

Angels Cry


Up Out My Face

toxic relationships. (venting)

There are people in my life that are very toxic, but I can't let them go. I hate when people try to take advantage of others, but especially when it's me. I may not say anything the first few times, but after a while, I get fed up and speak my mind. I think they continue to do it partly because of me. I'm a very forgiving person and can't hold a grudge for anything longer than a few hours. I guess I'm an enabler, kind of. I don't know, it gets hella tiring trying to people and their bullshit that's trying to bring my spirit down. Either it's by calling me out of name just because you want to or saying little slick ass comments that you think I can't hear or don't catch. Well, for one, I'm not dumb and two, I'm not deaf. I pray that the Lord helps me get these people out of my life, but for some reason the devil keeps pushing and pushing. Maybe it's things about me that I have to change, maybe I gotta just cuss those people out one good time in order for them to get the hint. I have no clue. I will admit, there have been days where I have thought about just giving up, but that would just give them power. That's what they want, to see me falter. I'm rambling, but I know there's a grip of people that's supposed to be in my "inner circle" that are doing more harm than good. Maya Angelou said it best though. "Still I rise"

STILL I RISE:

You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops,
Weakened by my soulful cries?

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own backyard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history's shame
I rise
Up from a past that's rooted in pain
I rise
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.

Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.

Trey Songz - I Wanna Rock

"Let me hold that beat!"

Last night, Trey Songz put up a link of his remix to Snoop's "I Wanna Rock" via Twitter. Personally, I thnk it's not as good as other ones. Once I downloaded, I listened and it's forgettable honestly. I prefer the original. Sorry Trey...

download: Trey Songz - I Wanna Rock Remix

Today was a good day...

I got a few things that I wanted to accomplish out of the way. Talked to my dad (eye roll), had some bomb laughs and the best part...

my Cavs beat the Lakers again!

though beaucoup Lakers fans fans tried to justify it with "Cavs win games, Lakers win championships" bull...
what the hell ever. Just congratulate the boys on a game well played and stop being sore losers. Always talking about "Kobe has four rings, Lebron has zero."

Okay, trivia then. How long did it take Kobe to win a ring? He entered the draft, 1996, I believe and didn't get a ring until the 99-00 season and he wasn't even drafted by the Lakers initially. The Lakers had already won championships before he got there.

Cleveland, on the other hand, has never won a championship. EVER. Matter of fact, they hadn't even won a Conference final until the 06-07 season.  2 years after Lebron joined.

(fact weighing) Kobe joined a team that already won championships, Lebron joined a team that never won a conference final and got them to the Finals after 2 years. I would have to say that's damn good.

All-in-all, Lakers lost twice, just suck that shit up! People are dickriding Lebron (hard) and only like the Cavs because of him, but I can't say the same for myself. Been a Cavs fan since I was knee high (I'm still close to that depending on who I'm standing next to, lol) and could understand the game of basketball. I respect Kobe and admit he's a dope player, but LA has two damn teams so one better be good! lol

and I just rambled about basketball because of some silly shit, but what the hell ever. =)

words of wisdom

"catching feelings is not a bad thing, just bad when you catch them alone."

walking on this road of... admiration? i dont know what to call it. it's dangerous though because it's a dark road, no street lights, no way of telling which direction i'm going.

Sammie - It's Time EP

His EP dropped at midnight and though I haven't completely listened to it, from the songs that I have heard it's probably ALL dope. Download here or go to his website and download from there.

PEWWWWN! =) 

UPDATE: I listened to the entire EP after posting this last night and it's definitely dope. I did not skip not one song in my constant replaying of it (yeah I said it). Even the A cappella versions were on repeat, but I'm a sucka for a nice voice so that may explain it. =p.

WORDS FROM THE WISE: You should definitely add this to your collection.

Dear You

Dear You,
     Yes you. I know we talk frequently but it needs to cease. You are not helping me grow as a person and honestly there's no benefit right now in knowing you. True, you make me laugh, but who doesn't? What else do you have to offer, like for my mind and my spirit? You are a stagnant being in my life and you have no actual purpose that someone else can't fulfill. With that being said, I'm gonna have to let you go. It may be hard, but it needs to be done. I hate being on a plateau, I need to elevate and you are hindering that. I have to rid myself of anything that reminds me of your existence and press on. Maybe one day in the future our paths will cross & you become something I need, but until then, it's been good.


Peace, much love & many blessing,
You

Brandon Hines <3

First post of the new year goes to you!
I've always been in love with his voice, but
it seems as though it's gotten better.

Trey, who? lol kidding